Neither You Nor Guru Exists!

First of all, there is no you and me. Especially once you become an ashramite, only one thing - the relationship between you and me lives through you. If the relationship is flowering, you are joyful. If that relationship is shrinking, you are in pain.

I tell you: there is no you actually. Of course, since long ago, there is no me. I have disappeared. The moment you become an ashramite, you are also disappearing. So there is no separate you and me.

Then what is living in you? Only the relationship between you and me is living in you. If the relationship is flowering, you are happy; if it is not flowering, you are suffering - because you not only have no other source to enlighten you or entrain you, in the ashram you don't have any other source even to entertain you!!

Whenever you raise to the level of your possibility, the relationship becomes very sweet and beautiful. Whenever you go down, shrink from your possibility, the relationship becomes bitter. Understand, that bitterness goes to your core. Whether it is my love or my anger, it goes to your core; my smile or my stare, it goes to your core.

My smile can make your very being flower, your root flower. When I stare at you, your very gut will shiver. Try your best to say, 'Eh, what is there, it's just the usual.' My stare will never be 'usual'! I might have stared at you 100,000 times, but the 100,001 stare will be fresh, alive and making you shiver, frightening you. My love will never be usual; it is alive, living. You might have had 10,000 hugs from me, but the 10,001 hug will be new and fresh and alive.