7. INTENSITY: GLIMPSES FROM MY LIFE🔗

When I was a child, my mentor Ragupati Yogi, used to train me in the path of yoga. He used to make me shift stones from one place to another, from one corner to another, and back to the same place, or climbing the pillars in the temple using just one hand!

It is not directly productive, but he used to insist that I do it. When I felt exhausted, he used to ask me to do the same work in an unclutched way, meditating on my all-pervasiveness.

I noticed that I used to feel tired by working for six hours, shifting a stone from the right corner to the left corner. But when I meditated on the infinite, I used to very clearly experience that I am able to work without tiredness for the next six hours, shifting the stone to one corner and back.

I tell you: mediate on the infinite continuously though unclutching. Go on and on and on. Take this as a process, as a spiritual practice, and work for twelve hours a day. Do anything, whether it is physical or mental action.

Take this as a spiritual practice.

All of you have discontentment about your own existence; but you never look into why, what, who is having that discontentment. Even if you try to look in, you get distracted by something and forget about it. Then you try to look in again and get distracted by something else. Again you forget about it. Very easily the questions about 'Why, What, Who is so discontented?' are forgotten.

The person for whom these questions has become the number one priority is a "Seeker".

All of you know that when fear takes you over, you experience a panic attack, and you just do things. Later on you feel guilty and ashamed about it. You repent for it. You don't know why you did it.

In the same way, when lust takes you over or when greed takes you over, you do things that you can never logically justify, even to yourself.

When fear takes you over, it is called “panic attack”. When greed takes you over, it is called “restlessness”. When authenticity takes you over, it is called “Satori (a glimpse of the enlightenment experience)!”

When authenticity takes you over, it will be ten thousand times more intense than fear taking you over or greed taking you over! It will be ten thousand times more intense and powerful.

When I was six, my Guru once asked me, ‘Do you want to become sannyasi (monk) or grihasta (householder)?’ I stood up and said, ‘Sannyasi!’

Still I remember, I just stood up, because I didn’t want him, even for one moment, to take the decision of grihasta (householder).

I stood up and said, ‘Sannyasi’, with such force and power. And then he touched my head and did something.

After two or three days, I asked my Guru, ‘Did you purify my brain to live a Sannyas life?’ He said, ‘No, no, no. I just increased the frequency of your intensity, that is all.’

This is the word he used, the reply he gave. Then I asked him, ‘What do you mean by increasing the frequency of intensity?’ He said, ‘Just increasing the intensity is powerful enough. That is enough, all the morals, discipline, values, everything,

will become your body language automatically. It will become your muscle-memory and bio-memory.'

When I was twelve years old, I was once sitting on a rock in my hometown in Thiruvanamalai. I used to just casually sit on that rock sometimes. To tell you honestly, I was not even doing some serious meditation that day.

The whole ambience of that place and space was so calm and so beautiful, so I decided to close my eyes. Once I closed my eyes, the intensity of my yearning started taking over me. The intensity to realize myself, my true nature, started possessing me. It started taking possession of me.

My sincere seeking, that "overpowered" me! That is the right word I should use. I just felt, 'What is it that I am seeking? Who is that me who is seeking? Who is that me that is deeply discontented about anything I see, hear? Who is that who is deeply discontented even about my own existence?'

It was such strong taking over for me. That is the right word I will use – "taking over". The whole being took over with these questions of, 'Who am I that is experiencing this deep discontentment, suffocation, etc.?' I could very clearly see, that heaviness just went into the depths of my Consciousness.

Suddenly, the first thing that happened is: the idea of "inside" and "outside" broke for me. The inner space and outer space broke.

The first experience I had was I was able to see everything around me, above me, below me and behind me. I was able to see 360 degrees! I realized not only was I able to see, but I was able to feel and experience!

I felt that the skin of the stone, on the rock on which I was sitting, and the skin of this body, both carry me equally, in both I exist equally! The air, the breeze, the setting sun, the rising moon, the whole Arunachala Hill (where I was sitting); all the plants, bushes, shrubs, trees, everything, everything, everything, just became so alive! The idea something is inside and something is outside was completely lost!

First, I was able to see in all the ten directions, 360 degrees. Then in the next moment, I realized, not only was I able to see, I was able to experience all of that as me! There was no "inner", there was no "outer", there was no "moving", there was no "unmoving".

The smallest movement of the plants was my movement, and the highest stillness of the center of the Cosmos was my stillness. "Moves" and "moves not", what you call as "near", and what you call as "far off", those concepts were lost. What you call as "inner space"- inside you, and "outer space"- outside you, the ideas were forgotten.

I didn't feel vulnerable; I felt powerful. So powerful! I just knew that I am oneness, that I am this Existence! The ignorance just melted down and the intense bliss of Enlightenment expressed in me.

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