I. What is seeking ?🔗

Seeking is the way the God in you wakes up.

What is it we are seeking? From the time we take birth in a particular body, in a particular lifetime, and whether we realize it or not, or become aware of it or not, we are continually on the path of seeking.

As a baby, our seeking may seem simple and limited to ensuring our basic physical and emotional needs are met in order to survive, through food, sleep, and affection from our parents.

As we grow up to be children, our seeking may get more complicated as we cease to be satisfied with only having our basic needs met, and we start to crave the affection, attention, and approval of our family members and the people who form part of our ever widening circle of relationships.

And then, as we mature into youth and adulthood, there seems to be no end or limit to our seeking, as we begin to also desire name, fame, wealth, health, physical beauty, fulfilling careers, loving relationships, and a sense of acceptance and belonging in society.

And finally, as we move into old age, we may seek to avoid suffering, loneliness, sickness, and our inevitable and impending death.

Yet, throughout all this, we remain unsatisfied. Having gone through this cycle again and again, throughout many lifetimes, the question still remains as to what it is we are really seeking.

Based on our experiences and varying levels of maturity, not all of us will be pursuing the same type of physical or emotional pleasures, and not all of our seeking is necessarily about achieving certain worldly goals, or fulfilling our materialistic desires, just for the sake of doing so.

If we look a little deeper into the nature of our seeking, we may find that we are simply running towards the objects of our desire in order to distract ourselves from facing the daunting truth that this body is temporary, and the simple fact that we are born means that we are also going to die.

So to avoid having to deal with the seemingly harsh reality of our lives, we turn away from looking within ourselves, and instead, direct our attention outwards for security and comfort.

We crave and desire temporary pleasures that we do not realize will only bring us more suffering, and we do everything we possibly can to cling to the identity that we have so carefully built.

By doing so, we deny ourselves the opportunity to examine our own internal discontent and to discover the true source of everlasting joy and bliss. This can only come from delving deep into the truth behind the ephemeral and constantly changing nature of our existence, and an understanding that true happiness cannot be found, no matter how hard we try, in worldly pursuits.

This book about seeking is for everyone, because everyone is a seeker. Some of us may not yet know this, but we are all on the path of seeking and we have all taken birth for this reason.

The path of seeking is a continuous journey inwards and upwards. It may seem short and pleasant for some, and long and arduous for others, but we will all of us come to realize that we are all on the path that is right for us in this lifetime.

By reading this book and contemplating on the timeless messages of an enlightened master, you will receive essential guidance and teachings on the path of seeking.

This book is a meditation that will deepen your insight and exploration into the true nature of your self.

When did human beings first start seeking? Seeking started in the Ganges civilization. When the seeking started, how did human beings respond, how did human beings react, how did they express when the seeking started expressing in them, and when did the experience of seeking start in them?

The first thing, you need to understand is that we worshipped nature also. We worshipped through the deities and through nature. That is why I am using a new word – NATURAL WORSHIPPERS.

We were naturally worshippers, not just nature worshippers. What is the difference?

Human beings, when they first started seeking, the first thing that they did was look up in the sky. They understood they have a possibility that is beyond their imagination. They understood they have to look up. They understood they need to reach high.

When the looked up, expecting to see the Divine, all they saw was the Sun and they knew the Sun may be symbol, but beyond him is the Truth.

Hindus are natural worshippers, not just nature worshippers. We worshipped nature not with the limited understanding which the other indigenous religions have about nature, the tribal religions have about nature. That is why I insist, we are not just nature worshippers, we worshipped nature but not just the nature – the force which is veiled by the nature, which is beyond the nature.

Nature worshippers will say, ‘Oh Sun, please give me your blessing.’ Naturally worshippers will say, ‘Oh the energy behind the sun, which is covered by your shining form, which we can all see, please reveal yourself. There is something behind you. We want to see that. Let that be revealed.’

True seeking is starting to look at what is it that is behind this Sun, which is making this Sun radiant. If one starts with the Sun or stops with the Sun, this is nature worshippers. But that is not the truth. Seeing the truth behind nature is seeking and naturally worshippers.

When you see darkness, and try to find out what is beyond darkness it is not that great. You know that it is possible and you will try to look beyond the darkness always, because you don’t want to be stuck with it.

But when you see a powerful light and ask, ‘Let me see the reality behind this light,’ it means that your seeking is so strong, that it cannot be diverted, manipulated, misguided, diluted, even if it is something glaringly radiating, even if it is shining like a golden light.

Sometimes even by celebrating my powers and glories, if you divert yourself from the original experience of Shivoham which you need to achieve, again you missed it.

Of course, if there is a feeling connection and devotion, that very devotion will raise you, remind you, and help you to reinvent. But that devotion of celebrating the glory and powers should not make you lose your attention from the true reality, from the truth.

On the path of Truth, even the glaring veils are veils. However, glaring it may be, a veil is a veil is a veil.

Contemplating on these thought currents, will help develop a strong nervous system that suddenly the fear about death will disappear. The mysteries of death will be revealed in front of you.

You will simply know the whole thing, and you will be ready and will be experientially liberated from the fear of death, and any powerlessness related to death. Your whole being will become powerful and see through death.

Each of the thought current is experiential. It is like a cooking. First add rice, then put a little salt, then put a little turmeric, then put a little tamarind juice.

In the same way your pure analysis step by step is adding each ingredient to the rice. So by the time you finish you are the best turmeric rice or tamarind rice. Even you will celebrate your existence.

Contemplation on these thought currents can guide you through all your powerlessness with that thought current. For example, if you have so much powerlessness about death: questions, unknown, mystery, pain, and unknown fear, contemplating on death is enough!

If you just catch the thought current, you can just go through the whole powerlessness, win over the whole thing. It can just sail you through all the powerlessness and help you reach the shore of powerfulness, and liberate you once for all!

I never feel I am not capable when I start any project, anything! This Golden temple that I wanted to build in Bidadi, casually I said one day, 'Come on! Let's make a golden temple for Shiva.'

I read a book, where Rajaraja Chola made a whole Tanjore temple covered with gold, because of his Guru Gurumaha Sannidhanam of Tondai Aadheenam word.

There is a document in Tondai Mandal Aadheenam that Sannidhanam chose a girl who will be the Queen and whose son will be the successor. So, he did all the marriage and rituals, and he ordered Rajaraja, 'You make a temple and cover it with gold.'

So Rajaraja made the temple, and invited Sannidhanam to come and do all the rituals. Sannidhanam went and did everything that needed to be done, and then after that Sannidhanam gave a command, 'Please, cover it with gold.' Then Rajaraja Cholan accepted his command and did the same thing. Covered the whole temple with gold. So when I read the story I felt, 'Oh God, what happened to that whole gold now? Now only the stone temple is there?'

But there is solid evidence that the whole temple was covered with gold, because when the gold sheets were drilled, the holes are there, completely throughout the temple, throughout the tower. Thick gold sheet, being drilled. Throughout the tower the marks are there.

So, we have enough evidence, once there was Golden temple for Mahadeva. Now it may not be there. I said, 'Alright. Let's make one Golden temple for Mahadeva with His grace.' I only started this project casually. I never feel something is not possible, when I started this project.

The thought currents which are generated in you, experientially liberate you! Sit with this context and understand and contemplate on the above thought currents.

Let the seeking happen in you.

The basics

Your very bio-memory vibrates, your very bio -memory actively functions, only with some of the basic questions about life. What is pleasure, how can I have more? What is pain, how can I avoid that? What is life? Is this understandings going to help me? What is joy? All these basic truths and basic understandings, how can I experience them?

These basic questions about life only continues to make you function and act.

For these basic questions, if you have better and better answers and click with the better answers, this is called maturity. Naturally, the answer your friend gives when you were five years old will be different to what your mother gives when you are six years. What answers your father gives you when you are fourteen will also be different.

Finally when you reach your Guru, the answer He gives will be different. So clicking with better and better answers is maturity. Ultimately, clicking with your own answer and experience, and the questions disappearing once for all is Enlightenment.

Seeking is nothing but coming back to the basics. Seeking is nothing but taking up a life without vacation!

Vacation is nothing but the questions you don't want to face pushing you to live the life you are not living. The questions you pushed under the carpet are jumping from below the carpet, and sometime it even bites the wrong place. That is what is the nagging you feel for the need of vacation.

If you are living in a space, the very idea of a vacation disappears, you have clearly ironed out your life. You don't need to stand anywhere waiting for something. Vacation, what is vacation? Just waiting to get out of a life you are living, go somewhere and expect you will get something.

If you think you have to go somewhere, and stand for some joy, something to happen to you, you are just pushing all your basic questions under the carpet. Catching and understanding life where boredom becomes meaningless and vacation becomes meaningless. Where life itself becomes vacation. You are doing continuously something which you are enjoying, cherishing, and feeling blessed constantly.

So come back to the basic questions, that is what I call seeking. Do not hide and escape with the answers with which you have not clicked. The answers which has not become your bio-memory and cognitive shift. Don’t try to use those answers to attack others or hide yourself or lie to yourself.

Any answer you give or receive should have become your bio-memory and clicked with you and become your cognition.

One part of you feels so strongly that you are going to exist forever, and you don't need to worry about the questions of afterlife.

It is like whenever you see people dying or you hear the news of somebody's death, you always think for a few seconds, what will happen to me? And then somehow you end up in the conviction that you are going to exist forever, or the problem is not going to come immediately at least, or you just decide that you don't need to attend to this question at least now.

Something happens which makes you lose attention and focus from that spark. Come back to the basic questions. Whatever makes you powerless is the basic question you are not able to face. That is the seed of seeking. Deciding to face those questions is seeking.

Whatever makes you powerless: What will happen after death? Will I be all alone during my death? In the deathbed all the pain that I may have to go through, will I be able to handle it? Or if suddenly some poverty happens in my life, if I lose some things, what will happen?

So the questions which makes you powerless, if you decide not to face them. you push yourself into more delusion again and again. If you decide to face them, that is Seeking.

Just because you pushed the questions under the carpet, they cannot disappear. Just because these questions have been asked many times by others or yourself or by yourself to you, don't think you know the answer.

Sometimes because we are familiar with problems we assume we know the solution to that problem. Being familiar with the problem does not mean you found the solution for the problem. Being familiar with a problem for quite a long time, because of the familiarity, assuming you know the solution for that problem, is delusion.

When you are alone, ask these questions towards you. If death comes, tonight, am I prepared to face it? What is Life? What is it, that gives me such a strong confidence that I am not going to die, that I am going to eternally exist.

I am not saying that your belief that you are going to eternally exist is a lie. There is a component in you, which is externally going to exist. Unfortunately, you do not associate yourself with that component permanently.

That is all I am trying to remind you. I am not asking you to get depressed thinking about death. I am not interested in taking away your confidence with which you carry, that you are going to exist forever.

Yes, you are going to exist eternally, but please decide to associate yourself with THAT permanently. It is like by smelling fish, you imagine you ate fish. Just by having the confidence, which is the smell of the Eternal Consciousness, you start deluding yourself – you experienced the Eternal Consciousness. That is what I am telling you, smell is not eating.

There is part of you which never dies, which is eternally alive: your consciousness and your bio-energy. And there is part of you, which dies. Unfortunately, you associate yourself with that which dies, but you draw confidence from that which does not die.

It is like just by smelling the food, you feel you ate it and you are fulfilled. Smell can never fill your stomach. Only if you eat can it fill your stomach.

In the same way, just the confidence of bio-energy that you are never going to die, will not make you enlightened. A small hairline crack is enough to take away your confidence that you are eternal, that you are not going to die.

You are eternal, you are not going to die, that confidence is only the smell of your bio-energy not the experience of your bio-energy. Make it as an experience, decide to make it as an experience, is what I call Seeking.

A person who works with himself, who constantly matures his aspirations is a seeker. If two persons decide to work together, mature each other's aspirations, it is called married life.

Go on working with people and maturing the aspirations of the people. If you start maturing your aspirations, the aspirations of people who are around you, you will be able to help them to get their aspirations matured.

The job of a spiritual teacher or religious teacher is helping people to mature their aspirations. Maturing the aspirations can happen only by a acid-wash.

I tell you, never miss satsang (spiritual talks), because that is the only thing which will constantly keep you moving! If you miss satsang even for one month, you will completely lost track, and you will be going in some other thinking direction in your life.

Never miss satsangh even for one day, because that will constantly keep you aligned. You will catch wherever you are stuck only with satsang. You will catch yourself, you will expose yourself to yourself, only with the satsang.

Where am I heading? My actions? My thinking? Is it all aligning to the reality of life? What am I going to do after death? Am I going to exist after death, after this body stops functioning? From where I came?

These basic questions should be kept alive till the experience happens, till it becomes realization in you.

As much time as needed.

Sit and contemplate about: ‘What is really going to happen after my death? Where am I going to go? Where am I going to head?’

Sometimes you may have received the answer Me, ‘Don’t worry, even after death you are going to be with Me in Aksharadhām, in Kailasa. You are going to be with me. I am going to be with you.’ The answers you received from me, may be vibrating in your heart as truth, you will be so connected to that answer, you will be so happy with that answer, then you don’t need to hold on to that question, you can start living that answer.

At one time, the devotion for the Guru will take over and this answer will start vibrating in you. But till the devotion takes over and the answer reverberates in your being, you can’t drop the question.

If you drop the questions before the answer reverberates, you will enter into boredom.

When you get up early morning, don’t jump out bed; just sit and look around in a relaxed way, ‘Where was I? Where I am now? Where I am going to enter? What is happening?’

Ask as if the first day you are waking up. Because every day you wake up in a different space!

Spend a few minutes for these basic questions: ‘Where was I? Where am I now? Where am I going to head the moment I get out of this bed?’

In the same way, before falling asleep, spend a little time sitting or lying on your bed, just try to align all the things which are driving you, are they aligned to your reality? And then fall asleep.

Do this until you find the answers to your questions.