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It is now time to enter into the technique. To tell you honestly it is not even a technique; it is just entering into the space, because no technique can guide you into that space. It is not even a technique. Now we are going to enter into that space. Now we are just going to realize what we understood. We will enter the same space in which Shiva exists. Shiva gives a beautiful technique in this sutra to experience that space of ‘be unclutched’. Once you experience this space, no technique is necessary.

Actually, to tell you honestly, this whole truth is the wisdom of Shiva. Don’t even mistake it is mine. Let me offer the whole thing humbly at his feet; at the feet of the great master who landed on the planet earth. Never ever think it is mine or anything, if at all you feel grateful for knowing this truth; just be grateful to Shiva. It is his wisdom, his truth.

Let me be very clear, when I myself experienced this I felt so much of gratitude. I wondered how he could think so deeply and give a solution exactly suited for modern man. See whatever you think as your problem, whether physical, mental, emotional or health, straightaway this technology can solve. The moment you experience this space, straightaway physical healing starts happening. All your irritations and mental health issues of addiction or depression will disappear the moment you experience this technology.

The moment you experience this space they will disappear, because the depression which happened one month ago, the depression which happened 1 year ago, the depression which happened 3 years ago are unconnected and unclutched. The problem is when you start believing that you had depression and same depression you are having continuously, that is when you start fighting with it.

If you know it is unclutched, independent and separate, you don’t think the enemy as a huge giant who is sitting in front of you. You don’t even feel like fighting. His head is separate, his leg is separate and his body is separate. There is no huge giant. You don’t think of fighting with him.

Only when you imagine you have a huge problem in front of you, you start fighting and getting into more trouble. Your fighting with depression is the root cause for your depression. Let you be very clear. It is the same way with fear. Your fighting with fear is the base support for fear.

In Ramayana there is a beautiful story. Whoever stands in front of this monkey king Vali and fights with Vali loses half of his power to Vali. Same way, whoever stands in front of that shaft and starts fighting with that shaft, half of their power will go away to that shaft. Vali and thought shaft are one and the same. You will never win. You can never win.

You create the shaft because you fight with the shaft. You create the whole thing because you fight with the whole thing. The moment you experience this neutral space, the healing starts, because the inner healing starts happening. The moment inner healing starts, physically also you are healed. This technology, this space, is the best space to heal the depression. It is the same with your addictions.

All your addiction as well as attitude towards addiction will disappear. You will even forget the idea that it is joy. Then naturally where is the question of going and running behind that habit. It simply disappears.

See, habit is a beautiful word. If you remove 'h', 'a bit' will remain, if you remove 'b', 'it' will remain, only when you remove the 'I', which is the shaft 'it' will die. Only when you remove 'I', only when you throw 'I' away, it will die. It will disappear.

It is the same with all your problems of guilt. This one space is enough. You will lose completely the idea about guilt, because the guilt of yesterday, guilt which happened one month ago, guilt which happened on year ago, they are unconnected, unclutched, independent thoughts. Only when you connect and create you give power to the thought shafts, which by themselves they don't have.

In India, in every town one gangster will rise. Every year, new gangsters will come up. If you are living in any town in India you know this. One gangster, one don dies or goes to the jail, next don will come up. They either will die fighting amongst themselves or with the police or they will go away to jail, then the next person will rise.

See, first day when the gangster comes out, he himself will have a little fear, but the moment people know he is a don, they will start obeying him. When everybody obeys him, though at first he himself may not have confidence in himself, but when he sees everybody obeys him, he will then get the confidence. 'Yes, now I can take these guys on!' His whole body language will be transformed.

Same way, when mind comes to attack you, it will not have enough confidence. When you are afraid of it, when you are caught by it, then it gets the confidence. You give confidence to mind to attack you. Once you show your fear, once you show that you are very fragile, that's enough for your mind. Now you are caught. Now it gets its seat.

For spiritual growth as well this is the ultimate space in which you can experience the pure witnessing consciousness. When you understand you are unconnected, illogical, random and unclutched thoughts, you realize that you are the space in which the thoughts and the gap are happening. You are the space in which the incoming breath and the outgoing breath and the neutral space are happening. You are beyond all these three. You are just beyond all these three.

This neutral space is neutral space only as long as you have the incoming and outgoing breaths. When that is diffused it can't be called anymore as neutral space, because it is the nature; it is your original state. This is what I call eternal consciousness, Shiva consciousness.

Now it is time. Let you understand and liberate yourself, let you all become paramahamsas. The moment you understand this truth, the moment you relax, the inner healing or the bliss comes out and you feel the freedom. Once you start feeling that freedom that is enough; it will give you tremendous confidence and courage to fly, to spread your wings in the sky. You will see that your being just becomes paramahamsa in mahakasa, in the pure cosmic consciousness.

Let us enter into the Shiva consciousness. Please close your eyes. Sit straight. Now you can wear your eye bands. One more thing, now, the technique that you are practicing, once you have that experience, after that you don't even need to practice the technique. Just remembering this experience is enough, you will be again in that same space. Only in the initial level, you need to relax. Just like a parrot, taking off. Once you take off, you don't need to bother about anything.

Meditation

Slowly start witnessing only the incoming breath. Do not bother about any other movements, or neutral space. Just witness the incoming breath first. Be the witness. Be aware of incoming breath.

Slowly start witnessing only the outgoing breath. Now forget about the incoming breath, just witness, and be aware of outgoing breath.

Slowly, very slowly, be aware of both the neutral spaces; when your incoming breath turns into outgoing breath; when your outgoing breath turns into incoming breath. Be aware. Witness both neutral spaces.

Intensely, be aware of both the neutral spaces.

Be aware of neutral spaces and incoming and outgoing breaths. Just be aware of incoming breath, neutral space, outgoing breath, and neutral space.

Be unclutched. Whatever thought comes in your mind, do not connect. Do not even think you are thinking constantly. Even that idea comes because you connect your thoughts. They are just completely independent thoughts. Do not connect them and create one more thought that 'you are thinking'.

Let independent bubbles rise and fall. Let independent thoughts come and go. Do not connect them and think you are thinking. Be unclutched. If they come let them come, if they go, let them go. Do not think you are thinking. Every thought is independent, illogical and separate thoughts. Do not connect them, and think you are thinking. Your idea that you are thinking is a lie. Relax from your mind. Let go. Be liberated. Be unclutched. Do not even try to be unclutched. If you are having thoughts, let them come, let them go. Just understand that they are unclutched. They are independent, individual thoughts.

Om shanti shanti shantihi

Relax. You can open your eyes. Try to be in that same space. Just see. Even these thoughts are completely unclutched. Your inner space is beautiful and purely unclutched.

Now when you come back to your identity, let you understand one more important truth. Now you know that this is your identity from which you fly. Once you learned flying, then it is no more a trap, then you can just come and sit on this stick and swing. The trap can become a swing for you.

Same way, once you know that you are unclutched your identity is no more a trap for you, it can just become a swing for you. When you come back to your identity, just be very clear, you are unclutched. That space will give you the tremendous freedom that your identity is no more a trap on which you are hanging, it is just a swing on which you are swinging.

Now, whether you are flying as paramahamsas or you are playing with your identity, you are liberated. Let you be liberated, and celebrate this great liberation from Shiva himself.

Q: Are you saying, just unclutch, detach, do you duty, don't expect any reward, things will take care of themselves, just like Krishna said, like Jesus said, this too shall pass?

A: Every thought passes. Each thought is independent, random and unconnected. Therefore, every thought shall pass, when the next thought takes over.

I am not asking you to do your duty. Duty is a word of conditioning. It is something that you feel you must do because that is what you have been brought up to believe. It is not something you do out of awareness and intelligence.

Responsibility is a better word. I always tell my disciples that spontaneity arises out of the responsibility that you feel to all that is around you. You do not define your responsibility as in a job description. It is not a boundary. It is not that you will go this far and no further, and let someone else take care of what lies thereafter.

The same definition holds good, not only in space, but in time as well. When you are in the present moment, unclutched, you automatically take care of the future and the past. After all it is the present that reaches out to the future. Once you take care of the present in awareness, your past cannot haunt you and the future will not disappoint you.

This is what Krishna meant when he said not to worry about the results of your actions. He said to renounce the results of actions to him not because he is going to get rich by collecting all the stuff that you think you worked for, but because he wants to lessen your suffering arising out of expectations.

When you are unclutched and in the present moment, you allow things to unfold as they ought to. You do not renounce action but the results of action. You become more energetic since thinking about and worrying about the results of your actions no longer stress you. You are constantly double-checking, constantly second-guessing. No, that is not what Krishna meant.

This too shall pass can be interpreted in two ways. If you interpret it in a fatalistic manner thinking what can I do, everything is destined, then you are misunderstanding the statement. Nothing is destined. You have the free will to shape your destiny.

What it means is that life is not an even climb or an even descent. Life is a roller coaster. If you accept whatever happens as normal and with equanimity, you will stay centered. Alternatively, if you are centered, you can take everything as they happen to you without flinching. Joy and sorrow are the filters we use to create those emotions. They are the slides we project, not the screen. The screen is blank. You can change the slide.

We create pain and pleasure shafts by connecting thoughts that happen randomly. Once you truly understand this concept that each thought is independent, random and unclutched, you become liberated from these pain and pleasure shafts and develop an energy that allows you to do what you think is the impossible.

Comparing me to Jesus and Krishna is just another clutching on your part, that is all. You only read Jesus and Krishna, you do not understand them nor imbibe them. Please do not do the same thing to me. When you understand me, you will also understand Jesus and Krishna. Our words may sound different but the energy is the same.

If you had really understood Jesus and Krishna, their words would have by now woken you up from your slumber. You would have been enlightened by now. Since that has not happened, you have become my responsibility now! So, don't let me down.

Be very clear, these teachings are given to penetrate you. Do not make one more shaft out of them. Let them straight away touch your being, let something straight away happen in you. Let you not be the same person, when you go back tomorrow after the program.

Someone asked, could I use this shaft in the initial stages of my spiritual path? This is an important issue. Be very clear, none of you is in the initial stage. No question of initial stage or ending stage. Spirituality is not like a cancer. In cancer only 4 stages are there; in enlightenment no 4 stages. Either you are enlightened now or never.

Patanjali says beautifully about the 8 steps. Until Samadhi, you have not even taken the 1ˢᵗ step. After Samadhi no steps are required. He says very clearly, even though he has described 8 steps, until Samadhi you have not taken even the first step. After Samadhi no step is required.

Let you be very clear, thinking that in the initial level you are the seeker, you are in the beginning level, all these things are words that confuse you to postpone the transformation.

Let you be very clear, the idea that you are in the beginning level and all these things are just consolation. See, I have seen people who say, ‘Swamiji, after 30 years only now I’ve started growing’. It will never happen. These are all words. Why do you want to come to that stage after 30 years? Let me tell you the truth now itself.

I have a big Research and Development department. I have so much of data available from all the professional seekers and seekers who are seeking for the last 30 years 40 years. I am making the whole thing available to you. Why don’t you use all these things? Why don’t you update yourself? Why don’t you update your intelligence with all this available data? Why do you want to wait and after 30 years come to the same understanding? Update yourself with the intelligence available.

Let me be very clear, you will never feel you are progressing with your mind. You will always feel that you are in the initial stages. This is also a false shaft that doesn’t exist. This shaft that says ‘I feel good and energized after meditation’ is just another pleasure shaft. You should feel like that all the time and you can.

Let me be very clear. Anybody can come and give you some technique and tell you that you are having spiritual progress. Spiritual progress means straight away having enlightenment. Anything less than enlightenment straight away means that it is an empty guarantee. It is a feel good promise.

Let you be very clear I am also teaching so many meditation programs. It will all give you the feel good factor. Nice thing. It’s like you go to a temple and sit for half an hour and chant something and you feel very relaxed. You feel relaxed because you forgot about your problems, your mother in law, your family and your wife, nothing else. Just that feel good feeling, it is no way related to spirituality. If you are happy with that, do that. I have no problem for you to start at that level, but please do not stay there, don’t get stuck there in the empty hope you are making progress.

But, if you are really serious about your transformation and if you really wanted dhyan, try to understand what I am saying. When I use the word dhyan, I mean the experience of samadhi. If you are really interested in the ultimate experience or the truth, understand that what I am saying is the truth.

There are levels of truths. Physically doing anything, physically offering yourself is worship. Verbally offering is japa. Mentally offering is the visualization. Now I am saying completely offer your being, offer your identity itself. Only then you will be able to transform your being. Otherwise part by part you will be just playing games.

So, nothing needs to pass except your thoughts. Just unclutch from them. Understand that they are your bondage if you connect them and that you can be liberated once you understand that there is no connection at all between one thought and another.

Let you be liberated!

When inhaled breath is held or exhaled breath is held or again filled, experience Shiva Consciousness in that state of purity.

Today's subject is 'Find your center, deep within'. We will see the sutra. Then, we will enter into the subject.

When inhaled breath is held or exhaled breath is held or again filled, experience Shiva Consciousness in that state of purity.

Still we are working on breath. First nine techniques, Shiva speaks only on breath. You will be shocked. He speaks only on breath and gives nine meditation techniques. He is taking us to deeper and deeper levels. He is trying to give us deep experience of our own being.

Breathing is something that is continuously happening in you in spite of you! Whether you want or not, it happens. Be very clear, you are not breathing because of you. In spite of you, you are breathing. In spite of you it is happening. That can be used as a beautiful method to take jump into the cosmic energy or into your own self.

Here, Krishna is taking us. Shiva. Sorry! Anyhow, I can justify (Swamiji laughs). On breath, both Shiva and Krishna have given many techniques. Even in the Dhyana Yoga in the Bhagavad Gita, Krishna speaks elaborately and extensively on breath. Here Shiva is taking us step by step deeply.

Yesterday in the last sutra, Shiva explained how to be unclutched. He speaks about how our incoming breath, outgoing breath, and the neutral space gaps are all equal. He was saying that we are liberated based on the concept of time. Now he is taking us a little deeper. He is showing us that we are liberated based on space. He is taking us to a deeper level of space. In the last sutra, he explained that we are liberated. We are already what we are supposed to be! He explains step-by-step taking us into deeper levels of our breath. In the last sutra he explained through time. Today he is explaining through space. Let us understand how he is explaining.

When inhaled breath is held or exhaled breath is held or again filled, experience Shiva Consciousness in that state of purity.

He is adding one more word. Beautiful phrase! Experience Shiva Consciousness in that state of purity.

Yesterday somebody asked me after listening to that last sutra. One person came to me and asked in the energy darshan, 'Swamiji, how to practice being unclutched?'

I said, 'God! You lost! You have not understood'.

There is no need to practice. All you need is to understand is to understand that you are already unclutched. Just remember again and again. The moment you want to practise, be very clear that you have missed the truth. You don't have to practise the truth. Truth is. Truth can never be practised. You don't have to become unclutched. You are unclutched. Your being is unclutched. The moment you asked how you can practise, be very clear, you have not understood whatever I've spoken. You can just play with words. By playing with words you can hide yourself from others. But by playing with words you can't hide from yourself from yourself. The moment you asked how to be unclutched, let you be very clear, you slept in the discourse! You have not heard. You have not understood what has to be understood. At least now, don't miss.

Here Shiva is playing with beautiful poetic Sanskrit. He is using different words to take us to a deeper space. In the last sutra we understood incoming breath, outgoing breath and the neutral spaces. In last sutra Shiva was explaining that this space of incoming breath and outgoing breath and the neutral spaces are all equal. The time for this incoming breath and outgoing breath and the time for the neutral spaces are all the same. The time taken for the breaths and the gaps between breaths are the same.

Now he says, 'Not only in time but also in space these are one and the same'. He goes to the extreme of saying, 'Nothing is happening in you. You are already in pure conscious state. Whether kumbhaka (retention) is happening in you, rechaka (exhalation) is happening in you or puraka (inhalation) is happening in you, you are in a space where you are already unclutched. You are already in that state whether you remember it or not.'

Let me explain how Shiva is coming to this understanding or how Shiva is going to give us this understanding. How he comes to this conclusion, step by step, beautifully and how he is going to transmit that understanding to us. People who have not attended the last sutra should forgive me. I think you will find a lot of things new but nothing can be done because it is an extension of the last sutra. The next two sutras are also extensions. He is just taking us to deeper and deeper levels. Alright!

When inhaled breath is held or exhaled breath is held or again filled, experience Shiva Consciousness in that state of purity.