Restlessness is the source of anger and desire patterns Jan 21, 2012🔗

Bhagavan is very beautifully describing how patterns of desire and anger are born out of restlessness. Restlessness is source of anger and desire. Restlessness is the mixture of the anxiety and panic in unawareness. I can very clearly tell you, the moment restlessness happens in you, even if you are sitting next to me, the kundalini cannot be awakened in you. If it is not there, wherever you are, just by a look I can awaken the kundalini in you. The connection is there. The Kundalini waits for the instruction.

This restlessness which is the source of anger and desire needs to be addressed. Please understand that restlessness is the worst enemy in the world. Either the restlessness gets converted into restful awareness which makes you experience the Whole, or it puts you in self-destruction with the desire and anger pattern.

For whatever man does, it is the result of the impulse of desire! Not a single act appears ever to be done by a man who is free from desire. This is such a basic truth. The restlessness which happens in you naturally tries to express itself by expanding the sense pleasure patterns. When it is not able to expand, it becomes anger. Let me give you this one example. You put a small baby parrot in a cage. The parrot grows and after certain age, it naturally tries to go out of the cage. When it can’t go out, it becomes angry. Same thing happens in you. The thickening of your logic is the growth of the parrot. When the parrot grows, it struggles to break free from the cage. The parrot’s struggle is desire. When it is stressed out because it is not able to, it is anger. When your logic thickens, your logic tries its best to expand the sense patterns. Understand, either your whole logic is going to be used in creativity, or you are going to dig an underground tunnel. In all underground tunnels, only you are going to be buried!

So work on the root pattern, the source pattern – restlessness. When you know the source pattern, the solution is possible.

Activity– Look into your life to find situations when you felt anger and strong desires. See if you can detect the root pattern of restlessness (mixture of anxiety and panic in unawareness) underlying these anger and desire situations. Accept what you see. Be very clear: acceptance is not the same as resignation. Resignation is defeat. Acceptance is a totally different thing. Acceptance means that you have clearly seen and understood the real natureof something, that’s all! It is just clearly seeing what IS, that’s all.

Take up responsibility Feb 7, 2011

Some people claim I don't have anything to offer to the world, I don't have any work to do, I am not that creative. Then suffer in depression. You are doomed to die in depression. Life is for people who are conscious. Life is for people who are interested in creating. Life is for the people who are honest and sincere to the place they hold, to the responsibility which they represent. If I am sitting in this throne, I have to do all the actions and creations needed for this space. I cannot be just sitting onit and avoiding the responsibilities. No. If you are responsible, you will not have negativity and be in depression. Dishonesty leads only to more and more depression.

I tell you, when you take responsibility, you will have the tremendous energy and courage to see the truth. Some extraordinary security happens around you. I can tell you from my experience. When I took the courage and stood up, suddenly I felt, oh Godthere is an extraordinary security happening around me. Till you take the responsibility, you will suffer in insecurity. It is an automatic mechanism given by God to remind you that you have not yet become responsible. If you are suffering with insecurity, understand, still you have not taken up the responsibility of the position you are holding, commitment to what you are holding and identity you are showing to the world.

One sailor and his wife were travelling on a ship. Suddenly due to a cyclone, the ship started shaking. The wife was completely shaken and started crying and shouting. The sailor was in deep peace, praying to God and meditating. Wife was shouting what are you doing? Are you not feeling insecure? You should do something. What to do? How can you escape? The sailor just took a knife, put it near the throat of the wife and said,are you afraid now I am going to kill you? She said, No! As long as the knife is in the hands of my beloved, why would I be afraid. He said, yes, same way, as long as life is in hands of God why will I be afraid. As long as the knife is in the hands of beloved, you don't need to be afraid of being killed. As long as life is in the hands of God, divine, you don't need to be afraid of getting destroyed.

Understand,if it does not click with you, you still have not taken the responsibility for your life. Somehow when I read the lines, it just with clicked with me because my inner space was ready to feel secure. If the land is ready, ploughed, then the seed can grow. If the land is not ploughed, no seed can grow in it. Same way, if you have taken the responsibility for the position you are in, you are interested in life.Suddenly, your inner space gets ready to feel secure. Making your inner space ready to feel secure is the basic requirement for feeling security. Your age insurance, your home insurance, flood insurance, fire insurance, medical insurance, accident insurance and malpractice insurance and any number of insurances you have,will not make feel secure in your life. You cannot have life insurance, you can have death insurance. You cannot have love insurance, you can have divorce insurance. Understand, the insurances cannot ensure security.

Feeling security is a quality which happens in you when you take responsibility. Yes, taking responsibility is work, is a thing to be done, quality to be cultivated. But when you shrink, when you escape, when you move away from it, life is not for you. Consciousness is not for you. You are not qualified even to breathe. Taking air from the praana is stealing.

If you take responsibility, naturally your inner space will be ready for security and this one story which I said will suddenly click. Yes, my life is in the hands of God. Why should I feel insecure? How can I be insecure? But if your logic says no, who knows whether it is in the hands of God or not, who knows if my husband is my beloved or not, who knows by mistake he may cut my throat, who knows after cutting my throat he may justify that cutting the throat is good for you. If you are struggling in all these great philosophies, be very clear, you have not taken responsibility. Your inner space has not been ploughed, it is still rocky. You will be in depression and nobody can save you. Nothing can be done till you take the responsibility and stand up as a leader.

Activity - Look back at the moments in your life when you stepped up and took responsibility and see how you felt then. Did you feel depressed and insecure then or did you feel strong, full of life?

Contemplate on these words - when you take responsibility, you have the tremendous energy and courage to see the truth. Some extraordinary security happens around you