Integrity to Guru🔗

"Integrity to Guru means seeing who is using this body. Contemplate on that."

He explains that integrity to the Guru is the best way to exist. It is being aligned with the ultimate Truth, that He is an incarnation of Sadashiva Himself.

When every action, every thought and decision is aligned with this truth, that is integrity with Guru. Aligning the whole being, integrating everything with this truth is being integrated with the Guru.

Paramahamsa Nithyananda narrates a story from His early life to illustrate this concept, and how integrity with Guru leads to not just a beautiful life, but also the most graceful exit. My Guru, when she gave the Danda for parivrajaka, she told me, "You will never be in want of anything you need for survival. Your life will never be under threat. You will be protected." She said, "Always serve elderly sadhus, that will be a great punya."

After she left the body only, I left Thiruvannamalai. I always kept the word of serving the elderly Sadhus.

After I had the darshan of Shankara Baba in Haridwar who came and gave me food and medicine and cured me, I was completely hale and healthy, blissful, running, enjoying. Suddenly one day evening I heard the news, Swami Vairagyananda, Sarada Devi's disciple – I have heard about him, I have even had his darshan earlier – I heard he was in hospital, really ill and needs to be attended to. There is a hospital in Kankhal, for which land was given by Maha Nirvani Akhada to Ramakrishna Mission. They built the hospital and are maintaining it. So I ran to the hospital. I had the opportunity of serving him. The best punya this body has ever earned is serving the elder Sadhus, especially when they are sick.

He was so happy the way I took care of him. He is a Mahatma. I can see clearly the internal organs are failing; the beaming joy in the face. His internal organs are failing, he may be alive maximum next 28-48 hours.

He said, "Aye, Koka,"

Bengali word to address a kid is Koka Maharaj. "Koka Maharaj make me sit." I have to drag him little up, so that he in at least in the slanting position." “Why do you want to sit, just lie.” “Nahi, only Bhogis lie down. Yogi can never lie down.”

He used to tell that the royal brand horses can never sit or lie down and sit. King has the habit of royal horses. Middle class sits or lies down throughout their life. I was shocked. I didn’t know how much to believe. Till the end, the flat lying down was never his lifestyle and he will sit and stretch the leg. I can touch and feel Bhagavan in the air he is breathing, in the space he is radiating. So I was serving him, taking care of him.

‘What I can learn?’ The moment I had this thought flow, current, he just opened his eyes. “Koka, listen, if you enjoyed five senses related pleasures, when that five senses cannot function anymore you will fall into depression. Because life will feel empty. If you enjoyed only kind of a thinking, the intellectual pleasures, like scientists, mathematicians, logicians, when that logic is failing, the powerful logic will give way, you will fall into depression. Even if you have developed only the power of repeating the name of Bhagavan, when logic slowly fails, you will fall into depression. Throughout my life I developed to rest in that pure unclutching space and my integrity to my Guru, so even though one by one my senses have failed, intellect is failing, visualization, emotions are failing, it is my integrity to the Guru which is holding me. This is what you can learn from my life as a lesson.”

When he was describing, I could see: the most powerful old age insurance. Even if you just practice just repetition of name, your ability to connect and remember will fail. Pleasure of remembering Bhagavan, even that circuit will fail in you. Visualize my own form and meditate, there will one moment where the visualization ability will collapse in you.

Only one thing can hold you – your integrity to your Guru. The joy beaming in his face. Only with Arunagiri Yogeshwara, I had tears of gratitude in my eyes. The next person I have tears of gratitude in my eyes for is Vairagyananda. The power of his integrity! I got entangled with that experience. I was literally vibrating with that space he was residing. That entanglement was the initiation, whatever he wants to give me as a blessing, fulfilment.”