Surrender again and again
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August 22, 2010
There is one thing in the Cosmos
which you can't say you finished
learning.
That is surrender.
It is an unending process, and it is the
one and only thing I still continue to
learn.
As I always say, enlightenment is
ultimate but not final. It is constantly
happening. Same way, surrender is
ultimate but not final.
When you first surrender, the different qualities of the Cosmos start expressing in you. But after some time, you will think you have become very intelligent. You start feeling that you can analyze the Cosmos with your intellect, with your understanding about life.
If you hold on to your logic, from that moment surrender stops and the expansion stops.
Because you are stuck, sometimes the Cosmos will give you a strong blow again.
After struggling for years or maybe for janmas, for many births, when you find that there is no solution in the outer world, you look in – and again the Cosmos is sitting there smiling, ‘Welcome back!’
You see. You melt. The surrender starts happening again. The highest possible intelligence and the different qualities of the Cosmos start happening again in you.
I tell you the same story exactly gets repeated with Masters.
People come, surrender, and experience the beautiful, intense period of ecstasy and expansion.
Suddenly, after a certain amount of intellectual, emotional, and being-level expansion, their intellect starts judging the very source to which they surrendered. They start judging the Master, and when they start judging, they are stuck. Growth stops. It's almost like having a bridge which can be lifted to the other shore! First they make a bridge. That is surrender. Then, from the Master's side, so much of intelligence, energy, compassion, expansion, and everything is sent to the disciple's side. When the disciple receives too much, suddenly his ego just starts judging the Master. The moment you judge, the bridge of surrender is lifted. No more transportation is possible. No more receiving gifts is possible. You are stuck. But the Cosmos is so compassionate. It gives you such strong suffering, which can never be solved by the outer solutions. Then, when there is no other way, with a lot of reluctance, you slowly lower the bridge again. The other side is just sitting with a smile and waiting for your bridge to land! And he says, 'Ok! Come on. Let's start the work again!'