I wept continuously when I heard the news about the scandal🔗

When we heard about the scandal news, I could not believe it. I was weeping continuously. After hearing the news, we were advised to stay in one area. We were also told not to come out as there was risk of life attack everywhere. Men were throwing stones and there was smoke cloud built up in the aadheenam sky.

When we took a chance and came out of the room, fear clutched me – the huts were burning and the air was filled with smoke – it was like a war zone. I was very scared, wondering what will happen next without Swamiji. We were running to the Ananda Sabha (meditation hall). We would continuously hear firebombs and the electricity was out. Many of us were in there: kids, program participants and other residents.

Then in the night, we moved from meditation hall to one apartment room.. We began to move about and pack up our things, getting ready to leave the Aadheenam. Our safety was the biggest concern. In the midnight, we left and I went to stay in a devotee’s home. I felt a deep pain that my whole family is getting separated. I was crying the whole night, clutching on to my rudraksha mala.

I could only stay a short while at the devotee’s home so my pre-monastic brother had to come for me. As I waited for him on the road that night, I felt like an orphan. I felt sick and empty inside, ‘Where was Swamiji? When would I speak to Him again? Why did this happen? Who was trying to harm Him?

I was worried about my future. I was also getting many calls from relatives, questioning about Swamiji and the incidents that happened. When I heard the news that the Aadheenam will be taken by the government, I felt such a horrible pain inside me. I was so sick with worry that I was not going to see Swamiji again or my fellow Hindu Monks. I called up the Aadheenam to pray for me in the temple that I should come back to the aadheenam soon as my parents were not letting me return again. One night, I was reading Sri Ramakrisha’s book, I stood up in my chair and decided: ‘I’m not going to miss my Master in this birth.’ In the dark dawn hours, I packed up my bag and got to the bus stand, waiting for the bus. Just as the bus was near, my mother showed up out of nowhere and caught hold of me. I felt, ‘My whole life is a waste.’ I did not know what she was going to do; I was afraid she would lock me up in a room.

I prayed to Swamiji, holding the strong intention and telling Him that I need to come back to the aadheenam. Within a few days, I told my mother I would go for work in Bangalore, then she herself put me on the bus. Once on the bus, I felt so free and relieved! I was on my way back home.

Attack on Paramahamsa Sri Nithyananda Swamiji was very painful

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