I Held My Breath and Thought the Next One would be My Last
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- Dr Ma Nithya Atmapriyananda Swami
Dr. Ma Nithya Atmapriyananda Swami is one of the many victims of the Cultural Genocide of extremist Hindu militant terrorist groups. She survived abuse, sexual assault and a murder attempt on her life, and endured trauma of assassination attempts on her Guru, His Divine Holiness Paramahamsa Nithyananda

My pre-monastic name was Kanaka Lakshmi and I am the younger of two daughters. Both my parents trained as medical doctors, which inspired me to follow the same path. I trained to become a dentist.
My father was a staunch devotee of His Divine Holiness Paramahamsa Nithyananda and introduced me to Him. In the first meeting itself I decided to be initiated into Sannyas (Monkhood), accepting Him as my Guru.

Dr. Ma Atmapriyananda is an initiated Spiritual Healer and disciple of Paramahamsa Nithyananda.
The peaceful, monastery was growing
“Around 16 June 2017, I was sent to a place called Trishulam in Chennai to build a temple for Maha Sadashiva: a huge temple and monastery complex. When I went there, it became the headquarters for all of Tamil Nadu Sangha. The Tamil Publications sector of Nithyananda University Press was stationed there and also so many devotees and volunteers would come to assist with the various social services and spiritual activities we were providing. We were serving thousands of people Anna Daan (free Sattvic food) and conducted Kalpataru Yoga and other mediation programs and classes. We also would do spiritual healing to the thousands that came. It was a very lively and enriching place! We came to understand that the majority people in the surrounding communities were non Hindu and did not like that we were having so many activities there.”
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We heard the attackers screaming: “Kill them All”!
One night a mob entered our aadheenam around 11:00 pm, and started throwing giant stones at the containers which we used as living and storage quarters. In the morning, assassins arrived at the aadheenam with the intention of finding His Divine Holiness Paramahamsa Nithyananda and killing him. Not finding him, they began to verbally abuse sanyasis living there who were all females, calling us prostitutes, making sexual comments and other derogatory remarks, including threats of physical harm. By afternoon, they had cut the electric wire which connected the entire living community to electricity.
It started getting dark. Taking advantage of the situation, attackers began to throw stones in the darkness. We rushed into one container, did our best to secure the door, and sat in the darkness huddled together, unsure of when we would be able to come out. With each loud ‘thud’ of large boulders hitting the containers, we shook in fear. We spent the whole night praying to Swamiji to protect us.
We could not leave that place, despite the events, because the vision for the greater good was more important. We were providing spiritual solace and social services for thousands, and had intention to build a temple and even a hospital for the people of Chennai. But what happened next shook us to our very core; it is only our faith in Maha Sadashiva and the grace of our Guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda that I’m alive today to relay the following atrocities.
Like a swarm of bees, about 150 people descended upon Trishulam Aadheenam. At the time, I was in one container where I was running a spiritual TV show, sharing the truths of Swamiji with the Tamil-speaking world and also taking calls for spiritual guidance. I began to hear the too familiar thud of huge stones hitting the roof of the container. My heart racing, I ran outside.
I could see one vehicle turned over and a large number of people surrounding each container, throwing large rocks. Glass and debris were flying everywhere – they were literally tearing down our campus! In the chaos, I was surprised to note several media people filming the whole incident, but none moved to help us. And where were the police? Somehow, we got into one container that was unnoticed. A bit later, rocks broke open the windows and the door. We ran and squeezed together in the farthest corner, covering ourselves with a blanket. We could hear some women speaking outside saying each container should be searched by throwing rocks, to make sure no one was left, ‘We should not leave them, we should kill them all.’ We held our breath, wondering if the next moment would be our last.
Suddenly, several rocks hit where we were hiding under the blanket. Sheer will kept us from moving so the attackers thought the place was empty! What a blessing. We just kept praying to Swamiji and within some time, the police showed up, the attackers dispersed.”
Our ordeal did not end
When we came out of the container after the police arrived, we could not believe the complete destruction of the campus and to our horror, one of our sister sanyasis was attacked in another container, nearly raped and murdered, needing immediate medical attention. A police complaint was filed against the mob. However, no action was taken. The Sanyasis felt helpless and persisted with the police for action to deter further attacks, but their pleas went unheard. Not knowing what else to do during the attack, we went onto Facebook Live to record the atrocities being done to us.

[https://www.facebook.com/justificationpropaganda/videos/251663712312739/]
VIDEO TRANSCRIPT:
Right now at the Trishulam aadheenam, we are going through a brutal attack by local rowdies and instigated by Krishnan, Indrarani. These local rowdies who are Victor, Sudhakar who all doing it illegally and have encroached our land and completely smashed our office and temple. The stone size is enough to kill somebody. `We are bleeding, the stones hit her head’.
`There is a plan murder attack brutally on sanyasis. It is a planned attack’.
When the first attack started, I heard yelling outside, then one woman came across the door and yelling in Tamil. When she saw me, she yelled, `Hit here. Make sure, you get them’, and that is when the first stone came and hit the glass and completely hit across me and the glass hit my face and scratched my face and here you can see. I ran across and we all stayed in the hiding spot for at least 1 hour. We just having our breakfast and continuing our work peacefully when from nowhere, they started attacking us.
Not only that, when they knew where we were hiding, they started throwing big stones where we are. They even try to get the exact corner where we are, where we were hiding trying to save our lives. These at least happen for 1 hour. Just in silence, rocks hitting us.
[Read more about the attacks on Trishulam Aadheenam: http://nithyanandatruth.org/aadheenam/trishulam-aadheenam/]