Fall in love with your higher personality
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You do have Sadāshivatva in you. You are hardwired for it! It is not that your Sadāshivatva is a gift from somebody. No! Understand: just like how, when you fall asleep, you set the alarm and tell the alarm, “Eyy, wake me up tomorrow morning” - that is exactly the way I sent my Gurus to the Planet Earth ahead of Me and said, “Eyy, I am coming, wake Me up,” See, assuming the human body is almost like falling asleep.. how entering into deep sleep and dream state is for you guys, it is exactly the same way for Me to enter into the jagrat state and assume the human body. My alarm clocks were my Gurus. They just reminded Me to fall in love with My higher personality - Sadāshiva.
The first and foremost sacred secr.et I want you to know - Integrity is falling in love with your higher personality.
There are two types of love [for the Guru]: an exploiting, sucking love and a chaste love. A chaste love, when it opens, the first thing you will feel is, "What a Being! I will be integrated to Him!" The exploiting, sucking love means, "Ahh, let me possess and do what I can, get what I can get out of him." A chaste love means, the moment you fall in love, "Wow! I have decided, I will be integrated to him from my core." That is the first decision I took, when I had darshan of Arunagiri Yogeshwara - "Wow!" Of course, I did not measure it, or I did not understand Him. I just know that He is something which is more than what I expected, as Possibility or whatever I know as possibility. The moment I understood that, the first thing I decided was, "I will be integrated to Him." Arunagiri Yogeshwara is nothing but all My fantasy, how I wanted a Guru to be enjoyed. It personified and become reality is Arunagiri Yogeshwara. How best way the Guru should be enjoyed. The personification is Arunagiri Yogeshwara. He is nothing but helping Me to fall in love with My higher personality, who is Arunagiri Yogeshwara again. Understand. From outside, He made Me fall in love with Him. From inside, He made Me fall in love with Him.
Falling in love can either make you decide to possess and squeeze and suck and exploit him, or it can make you decide to be integrated and listen to him. Both can be done. Both can happen. That will only decide whether you are going to be a Rudrakanya or a court dancer; whether you are going to be a chaste woman or a prostitute ! A chaste woman, when she falls in love, decides to be listening and integrated. A prostitute only plans to exploit, suck and possess and fleece, whether it is money, power or whatever, whatever. Same thing for men and women; it is not gender-based, it is gender-neutral. Gender neutral. A real disciple, a man, when he falls in love, decides to listen and integrated - or he plans cunningly how to keep everything under the control and have his share of power, everything in his hand. When I fell in love with Arunagiri Yogishwara, I decided to listen and be integrated to him.
How to prove that I am in love with him ! He is not missing anything that I can add. The only way to prove that I am in love with Him, is my integrity to Him. That is the only way I can prove that I am in love with Him ! What He does not have , which I can give him and show him that I am in love with him !
When you fall in love, the first thing that should happen to you is deciding to be listening, integrated. If you hit the bottom, “Oh, how much I can sacrifice ?”, you have hit the rock bottom; water is not going to come in this borewell. Borewell failure ! If you know, “Integrity is the only way I can tell Him that I am in love with Him,” then you are Ganga ! You are Ganga.
Ganga can break her very bio-memory quality of flowing downward, and can go upward, just to touch the feet of Vishwanatha in Kashi, by taking uttarvahini, taking a turn towards North. She is just showing, “I am in love with you, and I am ready to lose my very quality of flowing downward. The very identity of water is to flow downward, but I am ready to give up even that, just to tell you that I am in love with you.” That is the Integrity. Uttarvahini, She turned towards North just to tell Sadāshiva,“I am in love with you.”
Understand: only when I am in love with you, I make you
love Me! The biggest gift you can receive from the Master is Guru Bhakti; love towards the Guru. If you just pick up that one gift - Guru Bhakti - everything else will just follow you.
Integrity is nothing but falling in love with the higher personality of you, the higher side of you. It is a romance with the higher side of you; it is a romance with a higher possibility of you.
I saw Arunagiri Yogeshwara as My higher possibility, My higher personality. When I fell in love with Him, when I decided to be integrated to Him, it just became the flowering of Me.
