85. Awaken to the Truth of Your Existence🔗

A story for you. It is a news report about an accident. ‘Alabama’s worst air disaster occurred early this morning when a small two-seater plane crashed into a cemetery. Search and rescue workers have recovered 1826 bodies so far and we expect the number to climb as the evening continues.’

Understand, there is no connection between the cause and the effect! If you are laughing at this joke, understand: this is the same level of chaos with which you are running your life! If you see, your life is nothing but chaos, because you are not aware of the connection between the cause and the effect. Please understand, I am not talking philosophy. As long as you are not awakened to the truth of your existence, and the truth of the existence of the world and the truth of the connection between your existence and existence of the world, your life will be chaos, because you are running your life without knowing the purpose of your life.

First you need to understand why you exist, why this cosmos exists, and what is the connection between your existence and the cosmos’ existence. If you understand these three things, suddenly you will be aligned to the cosmos, and the cosmos will express its truths through you, the cosmos will express its purpose through you, the cosmos will live through you. People ask me, ‘How did you create such a big sangha, such a big spiritual community, in so little time?’

I tell them, 'I did not DO anything; I did not create anything. I only awakened to my own existence, cosmos' existence and the connection between the two. After that, the cosmos is doing whatever it wants to do through me, that's all. It is happening through this body because I am awakened to these three truths.'

Please understand: I also went through whatever you are going through! Paramahamsa means, a man who has consciously undergone all possible situations, so that can he can help others handle those situations in their lives. So I am not giving you any false hopes. You don't even have to think about how long you should do abhyasa. Relax from all those ideas. Do abhyasa now, and you will see you are in the Truth right now. After some time, you will see, you will forget the moments when you are not in abhyasa. You'll remember only the moments when you are in abhyasa!

The biggest enemies of abhyasa are your self-doubt, your guilt, your self- condemnation. Don't allow that. Otherwise you have to spend more time and energy just to come out of the self-doubt and guilt and start your practice again! Use the same time and energy to unclutch and come back to that higher state. Break the negative abhyasa of your SDHD – your self-doubt, your self-hatred, your self-denial. Come back to the positive abhyasa. Be centered on positive abhyasa. Bring yourself back to the center again and again.

The more times you come back to the Truth, the more your negative abhyasa loses its power. When your negative bio-memory loses its power, the strong positive abhyasa explodes inside you and you start residing in the same state. You start living that experience. That is what I call jeevanmukti.

People ask me, 'You are an incarnation; how can negative abhyasa happen to you?' Please understand: you can't make jewelry out of pure gold. So you need to add a little copper while making the jewelry. Then you have to put the jewelry into the acid and take away the copper, and make it pure gold again. That is the process. Same way, you can't create a body out of pure consciousness or pure sattva, so a little negative abhyasa (tamas and rajas) are added to it to create the body. After the body is created, it needs to be burnt to remove the negative abhyasa, that is the rajas and the tamas. That burning is the process of tapas, spiritual practice. After tapas, now you have a body which is pure consciousness, like jewelry which is pure twenty-four carat gold.

ACTIVITY

Today, Break the negative abhyasa of your SDHD – your self-doubt, your self-hatred, your self-denial. Come back to the positive abhyasa. Bring yourself back to the center again and again.

The more times you come back to the Truth, the more your negative abhyasa loses its power.

sutra 14

Committed and intense practice of unclutching makes one firmly established in a higher state of awareness.