More Than One Lifetime

Nithyatmananda [Atma]

Jai Gurudev!

It is very difficult to express in words my experience with Swamiji, because it not even an experience... it is beyond that.

Before I met Swamiji, I was in Osho Center, Salem, doing my spiritual practices. Once Swamiji visited Osho Center but I was not there, when I returned I saw Swamiji's photo there for the first time. I was very much inspired and wanted to meet and be with him. But it took six months for me to meet him. It happened when Swamiji came to Salem to attend a public function. I went to meet Swamiji, but since it was a public gathering, I couldn't talk much. I returned to Osho Center and continued my practices.

But from the next day… I could feel tremendous changes happening within me. I experienced boundless bliss and felt a higher energy force pulling me towards Swamiji. My mind played its games, I wanted to test whether this pull was real or an illusion, so I argued and analysed a lot and tried many meditation techniques intensely for two days. Then finally I realised it was not an illusion but this was a real call from a high energy force.

After that I immediately rushed to Bangalore Ashram and met Swamiji to surrender myself at his lotus feet. Whatever I read in Zen and Gurdjieff books, I witnessed it happening with Swamiji. Swamiji put all his time, space and energy to help in my spiritual growth, only I could not match his speed! He helps me and lifts me to where he wants me to be. This shows how compassionate he is.

Each and every day I see so many miracles happening in his presence and they are more beautiful than what you read in any spiritual books. But he always speaks very ordinarily about his extraordinary miracles.

I feel the relationship with Swamiji is not from this birth but a continuation of previous births. I don't know anything about the future, whatever I am experiencing in this moment with Swamiji is blissful.

Whatever I have expressed here is very little, but my experience with Swamiji is beyond expression.

I prostrate at the lotus feet of Swamiji.