Before I Met Swamiji

In the name of reading books I felt I was undergoing a great illusion of practising spirituality. I was also trying meditation techniques, discussions on spirituality. This was nicely satisfying my ego. As I confined myself to a small spiritual world, I stumbled, was dominated, controlled and in great confusion. I developed 'schizophrenia'. I suffered from deep depression and felt my whole life was dark and I was in deep trouble.